God's Not Done With Me

Today I got the devastating news that my vascular surgeon in Ohio has decided to retire. It is understandable, he is 75 years old and wanted to retire months ago, but the influx of patients coming to him for help made him try to continue. This is a very hard pill to swallow for our vascular compression community. He was the leading doctor who understood these rare issues and his 35 years experience helped him to see things on a CT scan no others could. He's saved so many lives and there was no other doctor I trusted to do my open surgery.

I feel like I'm standing in my ruins. I feel like I keep losing every time there seems to be a way out and solution for my health problems and pain. All I currently see are ashes and I definitely have a shattered heart right now. I do know God's not done with me even though I am lost, this is so hard, and I'm falling apart.


When I try to figure out why I could possibly have yet another disappointment, I realize during those times I'm feeling overwhelmingly discouraged, it's when I'm motivated to write these posts and share. It really happens like that, every time. Writing about what I'm going through somehow gives me back my confidence and restores my faith.

Hebrews 35-36: "So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised."

My husband made sure that I know we will do whatever it takes to get answers and relief, if it's flying across the country to see multiple specialists or paying $400 to send our scans to a German doctor to look over. I ask my prayer warriors to pray for a new path and direction that's God's plan because I do know this can't be the end of my story. So if anyone else has just experienced a broken heart right now, He's not done with you yet.

"Standing in your ruins, feels a lot like the end

So used to losing, you're afraid to try again

Right now all you see are ashes

Where there was a flame

The truth is that you're not forgotten

'Cause Grace knows your name

God's not done with you

Even with your broken heart and your wounds and your scars

God's not done with you

Even when you're lost and it's hard and you're falling apart

God's not done with you

It's not over, it's only begun

So don't hide, don't run

'Cause God's not done with

You-ou-ou-ou-ou

You-ou-ou-ou-ou

There's a light you don't notice

Until you're standing in the dark

And there's a strength that's growing

Inside your shattered heart

Woah-o-o-o-o-oah

God's not done with you

Even with your broken heart and your wounds and your scars

God's not done with you

Even when you're lost and it's hard and you're falling apart

God's not done with you

It's not over, it's only begun

So don't hide, don't run

'Cause God's not done with

You-ou-ou-ou-ou

You-ou-ou-ou-ou

He's not done with you

You-ou-ou-ou-ou

You-ou-ou-ou-ou

He's got a plan, this is part of it

He's gonna finish what He started

He's got a plan, this is part of it

He's gonna finish what He started

He's not done

God's not done writing your story

No, He's not done

God's not done with you!

God's not done with you

God's not done with you

Even when you're lost and it's hard and you're falling apart

God's not done with you

It's not over, it's only begun

So don't hide, don't run

'Cause God's not done with

You, You (You-ou-ou-ou-ou)

You, You (You-ou-ou-ou-ou)

You, You

No, He's not done

God's not done with you"